[ She was sat in the hallway. She couldn’t bring herself to watch as the doctors or nurses surrounded her, poking and prodding her. She wanted to know what was happening, but she didn’t. She’d tried to be noticed, but it was obvious that nobody could see, or hear her. She’s a little thankful that her nurse is Robin’s mother, Noelle. She was nice, she didn’t poke her, or act like she wasn’t a person anymore.
At the sound of footsteps, she looked up, her lips pressed together when she saw Mindy. Had they told her about Dave? About Marcus? She didn’t know. She didn’t want to know. She wanted to wake up, but she didn’t know how. ]
“Mindy.” But she knew Mindy couldn’t hear her. Nobody could hear her.
[ She managed to scramble up so she was standing. She didn’t want to see this, she couldn’t deal with this as well. She couldn’t watch her sister see her like that, tubes shoved in every possible place they could be. She couldn’t even look at herself, and she knew Mindy.
So she started to walk away, she didn’t really know what else to do anyway. Stay? Watch her sister have a breakdown, or freak out, or worse? What could she even do? She couldn’t try and help Mindy, let her know that she was still there, somehow, she was useless like this. ]
[ She didn’t know what to do. She didn’t know whether she wanted to scream, or to cry, or to just sit there in silence until someone decided they’d come and finally tell her what had happened. She wanted to be in that room, right next to her sister, holding her hand. Even if Clary couldn’t hear her, she still wanted to be right there reassuring the younger girl that everything would be okay.
She’d been told by many passing nurses that it would be hours before she would be allowed into the room and that she should just go find something else to do. It all seemed so… Heartless. Mindy had always promised she would be right there for Clary whenever she needed her, and lately she’d been slacking on that. This time she wasn’t going to leave. She was going to be right here just incase by some miracle, Clary had decided to wake up. ]
“Go to the cafeteria or something, kid.” That’s all the nurses passing from Clary’s room could say to her.
[ How they thought she could eat at a time like this was absolutely beyond her. All she wanted was to be able to get in there and talk to Noelle. Ask her what happened. Find out how her sister was. How everyone was. Dave and Marcus couldn’t have been too bad if she hadn’t been called for them as well. Right? ]
